Anxious....

As I began this week, I felt good about my position in life right now. By that I mean I am comfortable and know that my plan is not my own, but God's and it is a great one. I still know that, do not get me wrong, but as the week goes on I am getting a little anxious. I am anxious because I still do not have a job for the upcoming year. I know that many teachers tell me that they got their jobs a week or so before school started, but I cannot even fathom that. I am a planner and that really just makes me anxious. Of course, if it gets to that point I will still be so excited but also probably very scared! Today I spoke with some great people that have been trying to help me get some interviews and of course the ladies gave me great news that they had shared my name with a principal, but for some reason that still was not enough. I don't know why, but I think it was because at the end of the conversation, one lady told me that principals were interviewing all week! That makes me scared because I have not had one interview this year.
Now, I have had all my paperwork and everything done with the county since last year, and have delivered about ten resumes to different schools that I heard were possibly hiring, but now am just at a stand still. The struggle for me now is to be calm and to pursue all schools that I know and do all that I know and know that God has his perfect plan! To be in a situation that you feel like you have little control over is scary. All I can do is do my best in pursuing all jobs and be grateful for every opportunity I have. I know that I will make the best and most effective teacher I can be! This is and always has been my dream to teach and reach children, and I know one day I will be able to do that, and really hope it is soon. It is just so scary to think that the jobs out there are really so scarce. I don't even know if it is the idea that they are so scarce, but maybe the idea that if you don't know someone out there to put your name out, then you are just another resume on someone's desk. Again, don't get me wrong, it is tough to be a principal and have to search through those resumes, I have seen the piles, but it is tough when you are not from this town and don't know many people to get your name out there. I can't say that I am alone in this process and I cant say that I have the worst disadvantage, because I do have some great professors out there that are helping me, and without them, I think I would be even more anxious.
All in all, I think during this time, I just have to know that no matter what there is a plan for me and it is a great plan! It is just so hard for me to not be naturally anxious! So if any of you would like to, you can pray that I would not only get a job soon, but also that in the process I would not be so anxious.
Really hope this does not come off as being angry, because I am not that at all! Just really want to live my dream as a teacher! :)